Time has just flown by this year, hello December. As I prayed this week about what direction to write here today, a recurring idea kept stirring my heart. This idea was backed up by my pastor’s messages on miracles and, of course, the music that I am playing even now as I type. I have been stuck on Maverick City’s God Problems, More Than Able, and In the Room. These lyrics speak so deeply to my heart. If know me then you know that I love music and it fills my soul. I am so grateful for the moments that God stills me and washes over my mind and spirit.
Two years ago, I was five months divorced and dealing with many different emotions, but mostly I questioned my past decisions with men and wondered why I always chose the wrong ones. God stilled me one day as I prayed and cried out for His help to heal the past, and more importantly me. There is where I learned I was codependent and my journey to heal all the pieces of my past life. Last Monday night, I picked up my two-year chip at Celebrate Recovery. These moments are huge for someone in recovery! It marks the time we’ve healed and grown. It’s in this healing we have to believe in God’s promises and surrender to His will for our lives. For myself, these are the miracles of life. I call my miracles, God moments. I’ve been so blessed to have so many God moments. Even knowing all that He has done for me at times I forget that He is more than able to take care of each need even the little ones. Big or small our God is more than able and hears each prayer we lift. My pastor today spoke on “consistent and persistent” prayers. A lot of folks don’t believe that you should pray the same prayer every day. I disagree. I believe that the process of believing and stating our prayer requests not only is heard by our Lord and Savior, but it internally changes our attitude towards the desired prayer and our Heavenly Father. The hope and posture of surrender in our prayers can change our hearts. I know mine has changed me. I journal daily, I went back to two years ago, and seeing what God has done in the last two years blows me away. Trusting, believing, and surrendering to the one who created me. All the God moments, healing, and growth keep me writing here, serving at Celebrate Recovery, and most of all strengthening my faith daily.
I have a special request if you’re reading this today, pray for those who are in abusive relationships, or struggling in recovery. This time of year is not so merry and bright for everyone, especially in those situations.
Thank you for being here with me on this wonderful healing journey. Blessings until the next time.