Happy New Year’s Eve.
I can’t believe I’m writing the last post of this year! God never ceases to amaze me of His pure awesomeness. I always go back and take a look at my old journal entries and man oh man the changes that have taken place over the last two years. I literally left the shame, pain, lies, and bad energies and moved into a real authentic happy life. Literally from dread and fear of a new year in the past to this very day of anticipation and excitement of what the new year brings. That fear that has gripped me probably has held you as well….That friends, is our enemy.
Now I won’t lie to you folks, over the last month or so I’ve had the enemy ride on my shoulder and do the best to condemn, confuse and right out scare me to death. I felt the Lord nudge me to give my testimony and although I don’t think it’s any different from anyone else’s the Lord had His reasons for wanting me to follow through. I feel mainly because there aren’t enough of us educated on codependency and those of us who will likely be vocal over the abuses and trauma we’ve endured and healing from. So, as I reflected over all my years and typed them out little by little the enemy kept slipping the deception into me. I became more than terrified but in the end God won! For those who don’t know me personally, I have been leading a women’s codependency group for our Celebrate Recovery at Redemption Church. If you have any addictions whether its alcohol, drugs, porn, shopping, or any other habit we would love to have you. We have a wonderful group of people wanting to show you Christ and how He helped them overcome their habits. With that being said, I did manage to overcome the enemy’s lies and gave my story two weeks ago. My prayer that night as well as every time I make a post here is that if just one person is touched by what I’ve overcome with God’s mercy, grace, and love then it’s all been worth it. When we come to the year end and with the holidays behind us there are folks out there still battling with their addictions and/or in those destructive relationships and it’s at this time the walls and fears all come crashing around them. I sincerely pray for those people. I also want to say if you are one of those people reading this today and you don’t know who to reach out and want to email me from this blog and if I can’t help you, I will find someone who can.
God has been with me in every step of my life even when I ran from Him. He’s rescued me from things and people I had no reason or rhyme to be involved with. One of the most important things we can do as we recover and heal from our pain is share our story. We never know who is battling the same exact thing we’ve overcome. Unfortunately, we hide from doing so due to shame and fear. I’ve said this before, God does not want us to live in fear or shame. I did this for so long but no more. If I need to shout from the roof tops to help another human get through their pain and trauma well, here I am. It’s been a blessing to be here writing on this blog. I’ve had many people who it has touched, and I couldn’t be more grateful to God for that. There’s absolutely no shame or regret in my life anymore. Only thriving from here on. I pray that for my reader today and always that you don’t just survive it but thrive! As always, so very grateful for you being on this journey along with me.
Let’s make this our thriving year together!