Happy Easter sweet friends! I pray that none of us ever take for granted what this day truly means. This is the day of hope, restoration and our true freedom in Christ. Jesus didn’t have to suffer and die for our sins and atonement, but He did. He paid the ultimate price for our sins. And when we think of the true suffering that took place, it’s unimaginable. For all those of you who have watched the Passion for Christ, this becomes a realty instead of just reading scripture. The pain, suffering and pure agony He suffered for us is unbelievable. Yet at times we are aggravated by the least inconvenience or irritation. Jesus gave His all, His 100% and I’m guilty of not giving mine or being aggravated or even not listening to His voice call me to do something that is for His kingdom. Two weeks ago, when I was writing the last post on triangulation I had begged and pleaded for me not to write it. As a matter of fact, I had started another post on something entirely different. I had asked a sweet friend of mine to pray for me that Sunday morning because I had given in and decided to post it but felt so horrible. Well, our worship and message were the confirmation I needed to feel better about it and during the week I had several people message me to tell me their stories. He had a reason for me to post that piece but it wasn’t just to help others; it was to uncover the still painful experience and allow me to heal that piece of me. See when we peel back the layers of pain and talk about it or in my case write about it not only does it help someone else but the emotions, pain, and grief about the situation come forth for us to better understand it and make amends with the emotional pain. By the end of that week I was able to truly process and let go of that horrific feeling I had. It was anger! Not just hurt but down right anger spewing. When I processed the anger and allowed myself to come to real terms with it and was able to release it. This, my friends, is what healing is all about. It’s not linear at all and just when you think you have nothing left to heal well, the Lord will show you another piece that needs healing only if you allow Him to.
Another trigger happened this past week, we had a tragic incident of domestic violence in our community and two lives were lost, a family lost their mother and father, parents lost their child. When I heard about this incident I froze and went back to a time where my physical abuser said to me “if I can’t have you no one else will either” my prayer at that moment was “God please don’t let me die I need to protect my son”. Unfortunately I was in that situation more times than a like to admit, but God did rescue me and I was able to protect my son. See, those times I put myself in harm and He rescued me gave me a story of His mercy and grace, one that I feel called to spread like wildfire. My healing came with the passion to hopefully change and save lives. My story and posts are to educate, encourage, and bring awareness to these subjects that are hard for others to talk about. God placed this on my heart and if only one person is helped it’s all worth it.
Jesus gave us His all, His 100% and I must confess I need to be pulling more of my weight and truly being more obedient to His calling of who I am, and who I am becoming. I tend to do what I call my rebellious dance where He nudges and I roll my eyes and avoid the nudge for a few days or weeks and then give in. It would be so much easier for me if I just listened the first time He nudged. Insert eye roll here! He’s not done with me, and He’s not done with any of you either. So as Resurrection Day approaches let’s all remember how much we are loved by our God, and never forget that He’s given His life for our sins, and He’s given our lives purpose in His redemption of us. Blessings until the next time sweet friends.